March 2, Saturday, 2013

  Ed (eating disorder): "Molly, you ate way too much today. You know that full feeling? It means you're FAT. Oh, and you don't just need the feeling to know. You see all that flab on your belly? It's a belly. I know you don't like that word. You call your belly your stomach to feel better. But you're just decieving yourself! You're weak. You can never, ever, ever be strong. You might as well not try. You can never be a rescue swimmer. Only 2 women have ever achieved it and they never had an eating disorder and they were never fat - like you are! At lunch you ate way too much. It proved that you weren't anxious but now guess what you did? You just made yourself fatter! You just put yourself further away from your goal......not like you could ever achieve it anyway........."

Molly: "Just go away! I don't want you anymore. I feel fat. Why is it like you are always right? Why won't you just leave forever? Go away!"

Ed: "I won't go away! You ate far too much ate dinner too. All those croutons? They're LOADED with fat and carbs. There was only a little soup, but how many calories are in it? You don't know? Then you obviously have to add some extra calories on your total count........ you don't want to underestimate, do you? That'll just lead you to overeating every day."

Molly: "Ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!" (groaning/screaming in my head) "I'm fat!  I'm not worth anything. Why won't you go away? I already believe you ! I don't want to, but I do!"

Ed: "Throw up, Molly. It won't hurt you. You'll feel better. It'll make you stronger, thinner, prettier. Just do it. No one will find  out. No one sees  you.

Molly: " No, no, NO!! I HAVE WORKED SO HARD TO GET HEALTHY AGAIN. THE LORD HAS DONE SOOOO MCH FOR ME! I AM NOT, I REPEAT, I AM NOT GOING TO LISTEN TO YOU ANYMORE!! I AM FED UP WITH  YOU. GO AWAY, OR I'LL KICK YOU OUT. RIGHT NOW! LEAVE, SATAN. IN THE HOLY NAME OF MY LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST, I COMMAND YOU TO BE GONE!! I WILL ABSOLUTELY NOT TOLERATE  YOUR LIES!