March 2, Saturday, 2013
Ed (eating disorder): "Molly, you ate way too much today. You know that full feeling? It means you're FAT. Oh, and you don't just need the feeling to know. You see all that flab on your belly? It's a belly. I know you don't like that word. You call your belly your stomach to feel better. But you're just decieving yourself! You're weak. You can never, ever, ever be strong. You might as well not try. You can never be a rescue swimmer. Only 2 women have ever achieved it and they never had an eating disorder and they were never fat - like you are! At lunch you ate way too much. It proved that you weren't anxious but now guess what you did? You just made yourself fatter! You just put yourself further away from your goal......not like you could ever achieve it anyway........."
Molly: "Just go away! I don't want you anymore. I feel fat. Why is it like you are always right? Why won't you just leave forever? Go away!"
Ed: "I won't go away! You ate far too much ate dinner too. All those croutons? They're LOADED with fat and carbs. There was only a little soup, but how many calories are in it? You don't know? Then you obviously have to add some extra calories on your total count........ you don't want to underestimate, do you? That'll just lead you to overeating every day."
Molly: "Ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!" (groaning/screaming in my head) "I'm fat! I'm not worth anything. Why won't you go away? I already believe you ! I don't want to, but I do!"
Ed: "Throw up, Molly. It won't hurt you. You'll feel better. It'll make you stronger, thinner, prettier. Just do it. No one will find out. No one sees you.
Molly: " No, no, NO!! I HAVE WORKED SO HARD TO GET HEALTHY AGAIN. THE LORD HAS DONE SOOOO MCH FOR ME! I AM NOT, I REPEAT, I AM NOT GOING TO LISTEN TO YOU ANYMORE!! I AM FED UP WITH YOU. GO AWAY, OR I'LL KICK YOU OUT. RIGHT NOW! LEAVE, SATAN. IN THE HOLY NAME OF MY LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST, I COMMAND YOU TO BE GONE!! I WILL ABSOLUTELY NOT TOLERATE YOUR LIES!
Come, Molly who is thirsty, come to the waters....As the rain and the snow come down from Heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is My word that goes out from My mouth: it will not return to Me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace.
ReplyDeleteIsaiah 55: 1, 10-12
The Word of God has power and authority to arrest those unhealthy thoughts/emotions and replace them with God's truth about your value...your beauty...your purpose!
I believe with all my heart that the primary reason Satan tries to set so many traps for you is because he knows how much power and potential you can unleash on our world for God's Glory.
Look at the fabulous women who have made an impact on our world during their own tumultuous teen years: Joan of Arc, Anne Frank, Mary, mother of our Lord Jesus Christ, to name only a few.
"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity" 1Timothy 4:12
I am proud of you for standing firm!
Love you, Molly. Always.
Mom
Molly - I posted a comment - I thought. It did not work. I'll try to write it again tomorrow. The library is about to close!!!!!
ReplyDeleteWay to stay firm.
Love you. Always.
Mom