November 25, 2013
Where has my life gone? I've been reading my past journals lately when I have extra time, and I've begun remembering things that I thought I had forgotten. I am no longer a child - my childhood is gone. And I spent the last two years of it worrying about my weight and alternately starving and throwing up and working out. I stole my own childhood from myself - and I can never get it back. I miss being a "carefree" eight-year old terribly. I miss the connection I had with my siblings. I miss the innocence of my thoughts. I miss the fun, energetic times I had with Sean, Sara, and my friends. I miss when I could play with Barbies and then with Matchbox cars. I miss the Molly I knew. Who am I? Am I Molly, or am I a monster who has destroyed her love of life?
You are still MY little girl! Your life is laid before you. Do not dwell on the past. You are closer to your brother and sister than I was at your age. I am excited to see what God has planned for you and you can be excited too.
ReplyDeleteLove you very much.