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Here I am with a blog...my first one.
 I wanted to have this blog because I need to tell my story. I NEED to tell someone else what I've done to myself and how I was saved from dying. I need to tell YOU how powerful and good God is! I need to tell YOU how much He loves you and me!

A couple years ago my mom took me to the mall. I had just finished a playing a soccer game and I was TIRED. I thought I was going to the ladies restroom, but I went into the family lounge instead. Once I figured out that  I was in the wrong place I turned around to leave. I passed by these kids that were messing around with each other, and just when I got in front of them a boy yelled, " WHERE 'YA GOIN' YA FREAK?!?!" That boy crushed my self-esteem. I felt like crying...... but I didn't. I didn't feel like yelling at him because I thought he was right. I ate lunch alone with my mom that day, but I didn't tell her what happened to me.

Today kids are exposed to that kind of negativity at school and they sorta develop a thick skin to stop it from hurting them, but I didn't have that skin! I have been homeschooled my whole life, so I had never experienced ANYTHING like that before. Unfortunately for me, that pain eventually grew so much that I began to kill myself slowly by starving my body. I had an eating disorder ( I call it ED). Today I am a totally different person because of my experience. I am so much more joyful. I am so much more grateful for my life and my family then I ever was before. If you met me today you wouldn't guess that I have had anorexia and bulimia at the same time. This blog is my way of telling the world of my brokeness and imperfection, and of telling the world about God's love and totally awesome power.