Why this hypocrit is still alive.

     Do you think that Christians are just hypocrits? That they say they believe one thing but then act in a totally opposite way and try to justify it? Many people who claim to be Christ-followers are very hypocritical, but there are so many true Christians that really do practice what they preach.

I'll admit it - until this spring I was a hypocrit. I went to church. I went to Sunday School (not a cool name for us high-schoolers) and I went to youth group. I prayed before my meals. I didn't swear, I didn't take God's name in vain, and I didn't wear provoking clothes. I was all set right? I was good, I gave a little money, and I thought that I didn't have to do anything other than pray occasionally and obey the 10 commandments. WELL, GUESS WHAT, MOLLY, you weren't living like you expected everyone else to live!! When I confronted my brother and sister about the stabbing remarks they shot at each other I guess I forgot how often I had hit them or teased them beyond their tolerance level. When I got mad at my brother for reading instead of doing his schoolwork I forgot about how ofen I played games on my iPod when I should've been doing something else. Who likes to see that (besides the devil)?

I think that the worst thing I did was misrepresent God's holy name. Just take this for example:
    Let's say that your closest friend did something horrible, like stealing, murdering someone, assaulting a young child, or blowing up a building. That would be bad enough, but this person also claimed (consistently) that YOU had told him/her to do it, that they were doing it to glorify you. Believe it or not, this is basically what I was doing to God. No, I haven't killed or assaulted anyone. I have stolen a pack of gum and money on different occasions though.  l: (  I have also hurt my siblings physically and emotionally, I have thought I was better than all the people I have ever met, and I have alienated people among other things - claiming that I was a Christian!

Now this is the amazing part- God loves ME!!!! How could God- the perfect, all-powerful creator, the God who can bring the dead to life and can make the deaf hear- love me after all I had done? God is good, how could He love me after all the bad I had done? I have NO idea why He loves me so much, but I do know that He sent His Son to die a tortured and humiliating death so that I could live forever with Him. I do know that He changed my life and filled me with so much joy. I do know that He will do this for ANYONE who asks Him to and makes an effort to change. My awesome God saved me from dying, that is why I live for Him. I live only because of Him.!!