Today is my birthday! I'm turning 15. My mom gave me the best present that I could have received today. She bought me a "look and find" book based on the movie "BRAVE" and turned it into a scrapbook! Inside it were photos of me with family members or friends and also letters of encouragement, memories of me, or affirmation from those people. Thank you, Mom, for putting that together! And thank you, also, to everyone who contributed to it! I LOVE IT!! (If you are wondering why my mom chose "BRAVE," I should tell you that my hair looks like Merida's and I love the Celtic/Irish/Scottish culture)
I'm glad that I had a birthday, and I'm glad that I could enjoy it. Last year was probably the hardest year of my life, and when I turned 14 last December I wasn't sure if I wanted to live anymore. This morning I went to Pine Rest, in Holland, to meet with my counselor, Krista. I was raining and snowing on the way there, but none of the snow stuck. :( Last time I saw Krista I was feeling pretty anxious, but today I could honestly tell her that I felt wonderful.
I'm amazed at what I'm writing - hardly a year ago I couldn't eat without feeling an almost animal need to throw up, I couldn't smile, I didn't want to get up in the morning sometimes. And now, a year later, I am filled with an inexplicable joy! How did this happen? One thing I kno for sure is that I didn't and couldn't do it alone. My mom and dad never gave up, even when I wanted to just die. My mom showed me this afternoon the website of Eating Disorder Hope. I had no idea that this organization existed, but I think it is great! They have so many stories of women who have gone through eating disorders, and they have so much information on support groups, counselors, and programs that can help those with eating disorders or low self-esteem.www.eatingdisorderhope.com
Dear Molly,
ReplyDeleteHappy 15th! I am so glad you loved the scrapbook of letters and pictures. I had fun putting it together. I am so grateful that you are feeling joy now. Yes, last year was a huge struggle, but you have overcome and that is why I chose the "Brave" book. And because of the hair;) Love you always,
Mom
Happy Birthday Molly! I enjoyed putting your book together. I chose the Brave book for your scrapbook because I think you are brave for the hard work and difficult time you went through when you were first diagnosed with an eating disorder. You ate when it was very difficult for you. Now you are out of physical danger. I am so proud of you. You are a much stonger person now - mentally and physically. Do not give up! Finish the race!
ReplyDeleteLove you,
Mom